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For some reason I have chose to make 2010 my year for changes in my life. In the year 2010 I will have turned 26 and am now in my upper 20's and I guess its time for some major changes. I've been making so many changes in my life these days I don't know which way is up any more, but funny enough it feels great. I feel like I'm finally moving in the right direction lets hope it stays that way. Working on having a new body, new education, new career, and hopefully starting a family this year.

In doing so I have changed the way i eat and treat my body. As of mid March I found out that I have lost 60lbs which is a great step for me but I have a long way to go. I'm going to make this journey by eating better, being more active, and treating my body with more respect. I still want to lose about 100 more pounds, but at this point I think that I'm well on my way to achieving my goals.

I have also chose decided to go back to school(which starts in 4 days) to get my CNA with the support from my family and friends. Its time for me to find my place in this world and I believe that is helping people even if it is taking care of someone else's grandparents and being there with them when there family's are unable to be. In this journey I hope to get my CNA and then most likely go for my LPN or RN. So in 2010 I will have a new education and hopefully a new career. I find myself scared and excited at the same time.

Im making these changes in life so that I might have freedom again and feel like Im headed in the right direction . All of these changes that are taking place at once are scary, but it also feels good because for once I feel like Im moving forward not backwards. Hopfully by making these changes I will be able to start making the biggest change of them all. By starting my own family.
I guess it just takes some people longer to find out where they want to be in life it took me until I turned 26 to figure that out but for me I that is ok.

Well recently in my life I have taken on some big changes. I've taken a more active role in being a good house wife to hopefully prepare me for when its time for me to be a good mother.  I've also started on a new career path which will hopefully bring my husband and I to the point we would like to be which is a little thing called being independent.  My new job path is in Life insurance sales. In the one month that I have been working for Liberty National I have went from being just an Agent to new this week becoming a Unit Manager. It feels so good to actually be good at doing something, and really actually be doing for a good cause and a good company. I'm still living in the same house, and have the same friends, but I truly have a new outlook on life. Which I owe all to God, when you put your life in his almighty hands he shall provide and boy does it feel good when he does.

Have you ever heard of the saying "you can't judge a book by it's cover"? Well I think I'm a prime example of that. Right now if you were to take a look at me and my life you would see a wife, a women who is over weight and a person that you may assume has no motivation in here life.  That is the cover to my book of life, but the cover of my book is just that a cover. Behind it all when you really get in to the heart of my book. I'm a wife yes but one who loves her husband and is trying her hardest to have a marriage that will last a life time. You will also find that yes I am over weight but for the last 3 months I have been trying my hardest to make my self as health as I can be. I take pride in trying to make my life last as long as it can. As for this women that you see that has no motivation your wrong. I have more motivation right now than I ever have. I'm a what I would call a struggling photographer, but this is only because I am just starting out. Photography allows me to see the world in a different perspective and it allows me to see past all the horrible this in life. Through my camera lens all things are beautiful. Motivation for life is what fuels me to get up every morning and to try and make each and every day better than the day before.

Philippians 4:13
  I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

Where to begin, My life has been filled with so many downs in the past 6 month I have almost forgoten how to get back up again. Lost two jobs one that I like the other one I loved it made me feel like I had a purpose in life, and well thats gone too. I feel like no matter what I do I'm always in the wrong and no matter how hard i try I'm always going to fail.  I've started going back to school again with little support from the one person I'm trying to make proud. In there words " Whats the point in spending the money to go to school when your not going to do anything with it. It's such a waste..."  I'm still going to go school and trying to get good grades, but it makes things just a little harder. I'm trying to find a job that will pay my bills and make me happy. I'm also trying to make my marriage work. which all these things alone aren't easy to deal with, and put them all together it makes them even harder. I do see a light at the end of the tunnel and with ever day that passes I do know that I'm moving one step closer to happiness but its along journy.

In the month of May my husband and I got a dog he is a pug rescue from Korea. He was given to us by a family friend who could no longer take care of him anymore.  He is one of the most well behaved dogs I have ever had and I can truely say he is a blessing. 

Well I got a new job, it was kind of scary at first because it was alot more professional than any other job I have ever had before. I was one of the best choices I have ever made. I love it, it is doing all the things I used to enjoy. Plus I have found out that I can be professional when I need to be. I know it is only my second week, but I already know that this job is the best thing that could have happened to me.

I finally feel like a real home owner. It wasn't the house payments or the moving in and getting settled that made me feel this way. It was the up keep. This week end we filled in nail holes and touch up painted the walls got the mower in the garage. We also had our first meal on the back porch and enjoyed the beautiful weather.